“One step
across that line, that suggests the line dividing the living from the dead, and
unknown sufferings and death. And what is there? and who is there? there,
beyond that field and that tree and the roofs with the sunlight on them? No one
knows, and one longs to know and dreads crossing that line, and longs to cross
it, and one knows that sooner or later one will have to cross it and find out
what there is on the other side of the line, just as one must inevitably find
out what is on the other side of death. Yet one is strong and well and cheerful
and nervously excited, and surrounded by men as strong in the same irritable
excitement.” That is how every man, even if he does not think, feels in the
sight of the enemy, and that feeling gives a peculiar brilliance and delightful
keenness to one’s impressions of all that takes place at such moments.
On the rising ground
occupied by the enemy, there rose the smoke of a shot, and a cannon ball flew
whizzing over the heads of the squadron of hussars. The officers, who had been
standing together, scattered in different directions. The hussars began
carefully getting their horses back into line. The whole squadron subsided into
silence. All the men were looking at the enemy in front and at the commander of
the squadron, expecting an order to be given. Another cannon ball flew by them,
and a third. There was no doubt that they were firing at the hussars. But the
cannon balls, whizzing regularly and rapidly, flew over the heads of the hussars
and struck the ground beyond them. The hussars did not look round, but at each
sound of a flying ball, as though at the word of command, the whole squadron,
with their faces so alike, through all their dissimilarity, rose in the
stirrups, holding their breath, as the ball whizzed by, then sank again. The
soldiers did not turn their heads, but glanced out of the corners of their eyes
at one another, curious to see the effect on their comrades. Every face from
Denisov down to the bugler showed about the lips and chin the same lines of
conflict and nervous irritability and excitement. The sergeant frowned, looking
the soldiers up and down, as though threatening them with punishment. Ensign
Mironov ducked at the passing of each cannon ball. On the left flank, Rostov on
his Rook—a handsome beast, in spite of his unsound legs—had the happy air of a
schoolboy called up before a large audience for an examination in which he is
confident that he will distinguish himself. He looked serenely and brightly at
every one, as though calling upon them all to notice how unconcerned he was
under fire. But into his face too there crept, against his will, that line
about the mouth that betrayed some new and strenuous feeling.
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